Measuring the Days…

The snow is back again. Not a lot, just a dusting in the night that sort of covers the lawn. We’ve just come through a January thaw, where the temperature soared, all the snow melted, and for a few days… it felt like Spring.  Those of us who aren’t fond of the cold were wishing it could  really be the beginning of a new season!

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 That’s the way it’s been in our lives as well.  The effects of chemotherapy have slowly melted away since my last treatment in December. I feel more like myself. I’ve been cooking some, and enjoying the strength that is slowly returning.  Some days I feel almost… normal and I wish it would stay. We’re not fond of all this sickness and we’d love for a new season to begin. It is just a bit of a respite though. On Tuesday, the season will resume with surgery. It will be a right-side, modified, radical mastectomy.

I’ve processed this up, down, and sideways. I’ve sat with the God of the universe and we’ve talked long and sat silent.  I realized at some point that to fully process some things you need to go through them… so I’m ready to just do it. I wish this wasn’t part of my story, but it is. I can’t change these pages any more than I can stop the snow falling silent on the lawn, or suddenly switch seasons from Winter to Spring.  The thing about empty hands, having let go of trying to control, is we are free to fully embrace the One who holds all things… including us.

And He is;

Good

Faithful

Always-present

and Strong.

We’re putting one foot in front of the other into the remainder of the season. Our days are a crazy, messy mix of  laughter, tears, peace, frustration and wild Grace! We’re trying to measure them not by the season, what we have, don’t have or by the crazy that often swirls around us, but by how much we’re loved.

It changes things.

In that love, there is no fear. There is acceptance, belonging, freedom and rest. In that love there are more reasons than we can count for thanksgiving and grateful praise!

Thank-you for your prayers, emails and kind words. They have encouraged us, lifted us us up and continue to cover us.  We so appreciate you standing with us!

Blessings!

 

 

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Comments

  1. Katharine, you are in my thoughts and prayers. May God fill you with hope, joy and peace!

  2. I wrote down to pray for you on Tuesday(and every day)! You are such an inspiration and encouragement, Katharine.

  3. I don’t stop by here often enough but I want you to know I love you!! Praying for you today!!

  4. You- are my hero! Love you and lifting you up and placing you in the Father’s hands for healing.

  5. Praying for spiritual, physical and emotional protection as you continue this journey.

    Fondly,
    Glenda

  6. you have our prayers as you go through the surgery and continue to walk through the one-step-at-a-time days ahead. i have been thro’ seasons like that, not a cancer on, but one where getting thro’ a day is sometimes an ordeal…and planning ahead is nearly impossible! these aren’t my favorite seasons for sure, but they are special on looking back.

  7. Thank you Glenda, chemo was clinical, this step is much more emotional for sure!

  8. Katharine, This is beautifully said. Will continue to keep you and your family in prayer. He is faithful. Always present and strong. God’s blessings be with you in the days and weeks ahead. {{hugs}}

  9. You have been in my prayers and even more so this coming week. You express yourself so well in this post. I almost feel like I am next to you on this journey. blessings and love!!

  10. Praying in agreement with all the others and for all the hands that will attend you. May excellent health return to you quickly.

  11. Stacey Daze says:

    Praying for you sweet girl. Praying hard. ((hugs))

  12. Dearest Katharine,
    Your words are a beautiful reminder that God is good. Even through the difficulty, He is faithful and I see His faithfulness seeping through your words. What a blessing and inspiration you are, dear friend. Please know that you will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers! You are so dear. Will be fighting hard on Tuesday in prayer for you. So much love!

  13. I love your heart and how you help me see Him, sweet Katharine. Praying for you and your family and that you continued to feel held by our Father, through each continued step of this journey. xo

  14. Katharine,
    Although I haven’t been here as much, you have been in my thoughts and prayers. You inspire me with your faith and trust. I will be praying for you.
    Hugs,
    Dolly

  15. Linda Davenport says:

    Katharine, your life was a beautiful testimony in times of health and prosperity, and it is even more wonderful now during this season of suffering. We know our suffering is never in vain for God uses it in ways we may never fully understand this side of Heaven. I continue to hold you close to my heart and in my prayers as you begin the next chapter. All is grace. You are loved.

    Linda Davenport and prayer group (60 faithful prayer warriors)

  16. I’ll be honest here, I don’ know what to say.
    I think of you often and check to see if you post,
    I wish that you and your family didn’t have to
    go through this!
    I send you prayers and best wishes.

    M :)

  17. Katherine – praying that this season, though emotion-charged, and difficult will produce some incredible and unexpected beauty! May you feel lifted on “wings of prayer” by so many who love you.

  18. Katharine,
    Praying God is with you and your family today…praying He is especially present to you and your family and that you can feel His Presence and love today.

    Hugs,
    Dolly

  19. I’m sorry for the difficulty of the journey God has allowed you to travel. May He grant you continued grace to face it with courage and acceptance. Thank you for sharing so honestly. Gentle Joy

  20. “Katherine Barrett” has been included in the A Sunday Drive for this week. Be assured that I hope this help to point even more new visitors in your direction.

    http://asthecrackerheadcrumbles.blogspot.com/2014/03/a-sunday-drive_23.html

  21. Hi Katherine. I just popped over via a very long blog list in Blogger. I would certainly expect no different attitude from you, but I’m sorry you are going through this, and I hope you are healing well (in all ways) since your surgery. You are in my prayers.

  22. Linda Davenport says:

    Katharine, I think of you so often and continue to hold you in my prayers. I long to read an update from you and trust that God continues to care for you and your precious family. Love to you, in the name of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Be blessed.

  23. wendy cornett says:

    I continue to come back here for an update on you! You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers!

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