It’s these kinds of things that run, rather stumble, through my thoughts as I stare at the red lights on the treadmill. It’s 6:44 am and I repeat what I know:
It’s not a resolution, or even a goal(although I have a target in mind) It’s about Renewal. It’s about body,soul and spirit renewal. That’s my word for the year, the word I’m learning to walk in…literally every morning.
I’ve shared a little on this subject from time to time, but not much. Weighty subjects are never easy. There is usually more than one chapter to each story, and when it comes to why we eat what we do, and how our lives affect that… there are pages full! I can tell you this- For me, this extra weight I carry has been part of a self-protection plan. I don’t have the all answers yet, and I don’t honestly know what the root of it is, (although I have my suspicions) but I do know…it’s time.
Back in October, when I attended Allume, there were a couple of pivotal moments. The kind that leave you breathless, standing still, listening hard, because you know the God of the universe is saying something important. One of those moments was when I was walking out of the main ballroom after having done something uncharacteristically brave. To no one in particular I muttered,
”That was amazing…I’ve never done anything like that before. Why was I so afraid?”
And God, the one who whispers deep, said…
“Because you protect yourself, instead of letting me protect you.”
And I do.
Thanks to Rachel Anne, Michelle,and Amy for hosting!